if somebody could sit in my head now, he/she would be very confused. you see i make up my mind about some things very quickly and then when the time is almost here, i change my mind.. or at least try to come up with pleanty of excuses why some ideas are bad.
so here it goes again. i decided already on saturday/sunday that i would go out tonight. you know my mission to become cool :) so i woke up this morning early, did 20km on bike and an hour driving with a car (my respect for racing drivers has grown a lot recently) and even paid a little visit to my beautician who just came back from vacation, she does amazing job! and then i came home, spend most of the day watching 'true blood' and fell asleep, normal for me when i'm on vacation that i sleep during the day. so when i got up i started to think should i go out - it looks like it's gonna rain and i'm bit tired, maybe better to go out tomorrow and all my friends are out of town, sometimes i feel a bit insecure going alone... on the other hand, i looked forward to tonight and i already promised to give this dress i'm supposed to wear tomorrow evening to my sister and i have to go driving on friday, which means i try to be sober for at least 8 h before going...
then this tiny voice in mhy head says - but you still remember your last year's b'day weekend - almost no sleep, 3 parties in 2 days, more alchol than you sometimes drink in a month and Australia's F1 GP and all-work weekend, you survived it perfectly.so pretty much all arguments are here, what's the verdict? 'true blood' evening again (which isn't really THAT interesting, just something to keep me occupied) or white wine, maybe some coctail and if i'm lucky something more, like some nice new people to meet? like Alfie said - decisions, decisions...
if something worth mentioning happens tonight, i'll never doubt twice about going out again :)
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
how to become cool?
well it's been a long time..
last weekend i went out for a drink, since it's my vacation and i've been away from the city for about a week. i just missed it sooo much. i've been so tired recently and the decision to go out took me quite some time, should i or shouldn't i? at last i thought well why not? so i hit it to my favaorite lounge. i sat there for a while drinking my coctail, some men came to chat with me, but they were all old and from some weird countries, wanted me to come party with them later, but i didn't have that plan, at least not with that old guys.
but i did notice not far away from me in the corner a pretty woman. don't get me wrong, i'm all straight, but i appreciate when woman take care of themselves and i'm not shy giving beautiful people compliments, even when they are female. so she was there also alone and she smiled to everyone, chatted to everyone who wanted to chat with her. and i was tired from my 'company', so i thought 'what the hell, i'm bored, why not see who that woman is'. so i started chatting with her and you know that moment, when you recognize that yes, there a person who is as beautiful inside as she is from the outside. we had fun, laughing and talking.
anyway going home that evening i became slightly envious, i wanted to be like her, i wanted to be cool. it was the very first time i met a person who i wanted to be. so how to become cool? it's not like i don't smile to people.. okay, maybe i'm a little too impatient.. i would love to know what made all people, including me, want to have her attention?
last weekend i went out for a drink, since it's my vacation and i've been away from the city for about a week. i just missed it sooo much. i've been so tired recently and the decision to go out took me quite some time, should i or shouldn't i? at last i thought well why not? so i hit it to my favaorite lounge. i sat there for a while drinking my coctail, some men came to chat with me, but they were all old and from some weird countries, wanted me to come party with them later, but i didn't have that plan, at least not with that old guys.
but i did notice not far away from me in the corner a pretty woman. don't get me wrong, i'm all straight, but i appreciate when woman take care of themselves and i'm not shy giving beautiful people compliments, even when they are female. so she was there also alone and she smiled to everyone, chatted to everyone who wanted to chat with her. and i was tired from my 'company', so i thought 'what the hell, i'm bored, why not see who that woman is'. so i started chatting with her and you know that moment, when you recognize that yes, there a person who is as beautiful inside as she is from the outside. we had fun, laughing and talking.
anyway going home that evening i became slightly envious, i wanted to be like her, i wanted to be cool. it was the very first time i met a person who i wanted to be. so how to become cool? it's not like i don't smile to people.. okay, maybe i'm a little too impatient.. i would love to know what made all people, including me, want to have her attention?
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