blame it on the alcohol or blame it on the full moon - damn i'm scared. honestly!
i haven't named him yet, so here you go, i've always thought he was so nice looking guy, so now he is my candy
you see, i met my candy 2 years ago, i was intertested in his friend then, but already then in knew it wasn't worth it, it was just a little game and fun to play around a bit. and then came him - my candy and be sure he looks really like so sweet you want to eat him and when he talks - he is perfect: hot, intelligent, fit, hot again, hot like 100000000x times, he makes me breathless even when he is on facebook chat, that sinking feeling in stomack, his grey eyes and smile... how he laughs.. he is truly a candy... he is someone who i admire, for his creativity, his talent, his success in field you'd never think he'd be, his brain, his... just carry on, i'm in love
today is the day i'm doing what i did 4 years ago, with not much success. and it's because of him. i am following a pattern that i don't want to, i should have learnt from that - but what? that being in love isn't for me? or that i should just settle with something less, because i am less than him?
one thought of his pretty eyes makes my own eyes turn red inside... and i don't know how to reach you my candy...
i'm scared to death.. i don't have any specific plan, however i want to see him that much. it drives me insane that 5 days a week between us is some 300m and i cannot see you, or your unshaved beard which i adore.. i want to see you and i want so much more than that, you know (or don't really) i ask for a little more.
why do i keep doing that - torturing myself and fucking up all relationships with oposite sex?
just what to do? i am not normal
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