it takes a worried (wo)man to sing a worried song, (s)he's worried now, but (s)he won't be worried long

in past 2 days i've recived good news. no really, good. but they've made me think and also brought back the little crises i had last summer - i know what i don't want but i have no idea what i want. for moments i forget what for i have worked for past 2.5 years. and once i remember that again i feel depression - it's kind of slipping away from me, i'm living more in fantasy world that the one that's real. you know the world champion of dreaming. i'm still waiting for things to get better and i'm working for it, but for now it seems like nothing is moving, no matter how hard i try. no matter how hard i try to tell myself that i'm gonna touch the sky.
blame it on the full moon