hmm, where to start? i think i should start this one from almost 2 years back. me 2 years younger then and a little bit more naive than now. my boss reduced my working hours because the shit state in economy and i couldn't even refuse or something. he picked me and another girl from our little area because we were the one's who also studied. he did it with giving me a promise to give all my workhours back at the first possible chance. as you see in 2 years that hasn't happened. not that the economic state hasn't improved and not because until he hasn't had a chance. for sometime in near past i've told him (and not only giving him hints) that i would like to see that back on my contract. request which he has kindly ignored.
last week i found out that the lady with the dog is going away (yay!!!) and for a moment i thought we should make peace with each other, you know christmas and such, but luckily for me i didn't have a chance and time to do that, until i realized that if i go with a peaceoffer, it makes me again the one who takes the blame for something i haven't done.
anyway at that point i reminded my request again to my boss and he said he is considering it. as the lady with the dog isn't also workig full time and one of our collegues had also reduced her workhours i saw my chance. i guess that this shouldn't have come as a surprise to me when i saw that he took a new person to work on full time and ignored again my request, even though i've been working my ass off for this job for 2.5 years and finally it would be time that he prefer me to other people, as he said me once that he prefers a person who has worked longer for us than me. mildly said - i was so f***ing pissed off and angry it was his pure luck he didn't see me today. i had 2 options - either to be as emotional as i can be (which considering my background is so surprising to some) and tell him i quit or to be colder than usual and ask him if i got it right that he has no plans to give me back what he took away and prefering someone completly new. which was about all i wanted to know.
so as he was not present today i thought that shit things you just don't take with you to new year and as i don't go to work anymore this year i'll finish this tiny thing in style. i wrote him a tiny e-mail saying how disappointed i am. i'm quite sure he will want to talk to me next time we'll see, but already then i know what i'll tell him - that i am not intersted anymore in his excuses and just walk away.
so to another topic. tonight i had a dream about unfairly genetically blessed guy. he was in old farm complex (i know few days ago we talked about those complexes with my sister) and he was about to purpose his girlfriend and i screamed to him - 'don't do that, you'll regret it. it's too soon, you know that too!' and it seemed that for a moment he listened to me, but i knew he didn't give up on that plan, that he wanted that to take place in somewhere new year's even time.
don't get me wrong, i'm not obsessed with UGB guy, i wasn't even slightly thinking about him last night (rather how i'll scream at my boss) and i surely don't know what kind of his girlfriend looks like. but also i cannot say that i couldn't care less about what he is doing in his personal life, god it's quite interesting. it's just weird such dreams pop up like that
No comments:
Post a Comment